Dónde me llevan
todos estos versos
dónde me dejarán plantado
en qué sombra
de cuál solipsismo
se derraman palabras
como gotas de sangre vital
por dónde
cae
la inmaterial sustancia
de un sueño
por dónde cursan
los ríos
de una aventura
imaginada,
en qué tinta
quedan plasmados
los irreversibles hechos
de una invisible
vida.
Y este dedo
que se desliza
debajo del ojo
sintiendo la masa
de piel
como una tierra
hecha de carne
todo es todo
hay que cerrar los ojos
cerrar los ojos
para tenerlo todo
cae de mi frente
el sudor frío
de un doloroso éctasis
si no es santidad
debe ser
una corriente
emanando de
los vientos primordiales
que zumbaron
entre los hemisferios
de la primera noche,
hay que cerrar los ojos
y sentir
la carne con su sangre
la música con su vino
la vida con su muerte
todo con todo
a las orillas
de un silencio.
The end
had come
plummeting to the ground
my fingers spread
making one last contact
with the sidewalk
the rough cement
at the base
of this ultimate world
I was dying
my heart had only a few
beats left
before the entire
intoxication of life
would vanish
and I
touching this world
for a last time
on the street side
the hard grey cement
the pain and the beauty
the last sight of sky
the last gust of air
leaving
all the strange
beautiful
perplexing realities
within the earth
that was holding me
for the very last time.
Does it come late
to define
this old reality
with all the
unusual
words
unearthed
at the other
side
of
the
lonely
human
soul.
Inaccessible trees
stand in the fog
as the limits to my world,
a fog dense and metaphysical
trees alien as my cavernous thoughts
a few brave lifeless sticks emerge from the snow
the milky wind brushing
whitening them slowly
with the impassible oblivion
that has set in,
an ivory spell
led astray into this cold nook
of washed away eternity,
while I’m encapsulated
in the immobility
of this white extraneous soul
a pleasing despair
that is felt
after each
footstep in the ice.
More Poetic Scenery: Nihilistic Poetry
I release a deep breath
unawares of anything
I’ve been away
weaving dreams
like a curing madness
the petty circumference of my desire
impels me to
move
not one finger
an inertia comparable
to an everlasting god
that has lived a thousand infinities,
in the deepest streets
in the coldest thoughts
I am a reckless survivor
dreaming in poetry
as a small pebble
tucked away
under the entire
weight
of the universe.
I turn my head
finally
after days:
the streets are covered with snow.
I’ve been unaware
like the boy
quietly placing a dot
after every sentence
of lyrical self-absorption:
the consequence
of being
irrelevant.
Pasos, pasos
y una furtiva mirada
tal vez,
entre ojos y ojos
horas y horas
extrañando los nombres
que nunca tuve
perdiendo las vidas
que no fueron mías
pasos lentos
una nota de piano
como esa nieve
lejos de todo,
mi alma cósmica
entre reojos
entre horas
tan lejos de todo.
This is the first step
into a wide open world
the toes stepping on frosty ledges
in an abandoned city
with closed eyes everything is ownerless
then the wispy breeze
then the last leaf of the last tree
then your hand in your inside pocket
hopelessly seeking the tobacco pipe
and the curled tobacco tatters
that will accompany you through
the long twisted journey of smoke and ash;
and while this can be a dream
another broken dimension of subjectivity
you can still feel the rubber of the shoe
stepping on the frigid pavement without cars
the shadows of street signs
wrapping around angles and grayness
as the horizon grows dim with sudden silence
the eyes watery, glorious, unbelieving
of the eternity of being lost and free
in an abandoned city
hidden somehow
in a wide open world.
La poesía es mi tercer solitario ensueño
similar a la vida borracha de símbolos
o al sueño cansado de cronología
así, la vida, los sueños y la poesía
son todos, con igual probabilidad
la temible alucinación de una sombra humana
que desliza un frágil dedo sobre el polvo existencial
exponiendo la superficie gris y hueca
y al llegar el dedo al borde
resbala y cae en una profundidad fría y alegre,
y como no queda más nada
el verde de la hora
se distrae con la neblina de adjetivos
y la sustancia intocable de versos
inventando un nuevo mundo
donde ni siquiera yo
estoy seguro de existir.
